Sick.

I’m sick Sick of it all The hushed voices The raised eyebrows The eye rolls The sniggers. At the age of twenty-eight, I’ve been thrown back into high school I’m reliving the torment, the pain, the bullying, the tears the frustration That feeling, deep, deep down in the pit of my stomach That I’m still…

On top of the food chain?

I’ve been watching Nat Geo Wild for about 2-3 hours a day watching various programs from super cute baby animals, to animal fight clubs and learned a stack of things. Some random facts that still blow my mind, is that there are animals that can alter their own gender (the spotted hyena and the cuttlefish),…

because you said

Because you said “I was joking! Stop being so stupid”                                                 It wasn’t a joke and it wasn’t funny. Because, you said “That’s life, deal with it”            …

As Children

As children  We are taught To love animals We take in dogs, Cats. Rabbits. Fish restrained in bowls. Birds in cages. But, we are taught. To feed, love and respect them. To treat them as part of the family. Yet, the love and respect ends When dinner is served  We are served up baby animals on…

Long Days and Early mornings

Yesterday I attended my first march, so my first act of activism. I was feeling a lot of things prior. On the train, I felt sick. At the park, while wandering looking for a familiar face in a sea of bright red shirts emblazoned with the words Vegan.Easy.org on them, I felt alone and lost.…

New Year… New Me?

So, this is my first written post of the year 2017. I've posted about it on various forms of social media. FB/Instagram mainly. But since my last post, I had a social media hiatus. Essentially, the goal was to find me, to find Ashlee! As typical, generic and probably overdone that may sound. But I needed…

Happy Holidays?

So, the last few weeks have been.. well a whirlwind to put it lightly. Massive highs... followed by manic, pyschotic, depressive lows. As much as I'd love to pass it off as being typical holiday stress. I know it's much, more deep seeded than that. Essentially, I have been a ticking time bomb for the…

That point

My life- has gotten to a point. That I can't continue to preach "good vibes" anymore. I can't fake it anymore I can't keep saying the same things, telling myself the same thing over and over to myself because the only thing that I am doing is continuing to lie to myself. Perpetuating this illusion,…

Recovery, Social Work & Positivity

I've recently been pondering the concept of studying social work while in recovery. Before I started my social work degree in 2013 I had been diagnosed with severe depression, GAD (Generalised Anxiety Disorder), severe stress, PSTD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder) and Anorexia Nervosa (with bulimic tendencies) with bouts of self-harm. Prior to starting my degree, and…

Unsent Letter

I've recently been pondering the concept of writing a letter slash email, slash something to get my thoughts out. So I guess this is gonna be it, my outlet? Again, not sure how far it will be reached but either way. Whether or not I send something: put pen to paper, fingers to keys and click…

Mental Health Day & Rabbit Holes

This is the excerpt for your very first post.